The most important part about me is that after years of misunderstanding my frustrations I have identified what the core of the problem has been all along. Most of my life is mired in sadness, rejection, and turbulence simply by my inability to remotely consider that I was anything other than the ideal stereo-type male structure. I am transgender and as for step one I have discovered and admitted to myself this is a real and sobering situation. This has happened to ME! Now I allow IT! I now have learned to enjoy who I am and I have allowed this deeply guarded part of my personality hidden so deep within my soul for so many years to come to life and flourish. I have also learned that within this deeply guarded part of me was this beautiful person that is loving and caring and has gracefully taken flight like a butterfly's shadow in the early morning sun. The souls that lie in the wake of my past will only remember the angry and cruel thunder that crash through their lives leaving only contempt in their hearts. The past is painful in many ways. The future holds so much hope. I am here hoping to find friends to share with, resources for basics, and when all else fails, advice,

Niky