I am a M2F and i am looking for support and a lot of love. I am currently not out and i have tried all my life to be the male that i am supposta be. but i don't know. I not totally happy and I'm not totally sure about any thing in reality. I have had what i think is gender Dysphoria for a long time now and even when i was a child. I have never been diagnosed that way but i never feel totally happy with my self as my assigned gender. I am currently in a relationship with a woman but she knows nothing about this for me and i have kept is secrete. this relationship has been fairly abusive and i have been cheated on by her 3 times in 3 years. the next time that happens i have made a promise to walk away from this and work on becoming my authentic self.