I am brand new to this, trying to slowly start the process of transition. I felt like a woman since I was 3 or 4 years old, and now 40 years later, I feel like I need to explore this. I may not ever fully transition, but I am trying to find out what it would be like. I think about this constantly, but go years without doing anything about it, because of shame. I feel like now I need to at least find out, or I may jump out of my skin.