I started transitioning in 2012, on HRT for 5 years and been back off for 3. I made a decision at 13 that since I would never be pretty, that I would grow u to be the best man I could be. After raising 5 children and learning a thing or two about life. I decided to be me. HRT allowed the confidence of that 13 year old girl to mature and in my 40s I got to be that pretty woman that I always dreamed of being.

Trying to force others to accept my reality, led to a lot of loneliness, and having to face that my transition was selfish and a character trait of vanity and learning a thing or two about my self, I decided to stop HRT. Not necessarily a good path nor a bad path, just the path that I chose. I also have to face that I am not 100% me as a man, nor am I 100% me as a woman.

Does this make my non-binary? Or, simply a woman trapped in a male body. My internal belief system leads me to believe I have the soul of a woman. Still I am starting to lean in the direction that the soul may not actually have a gender. Which means that all these gender roles in society are pretty much fictional all around, so today I dress appropriate for the situation, and you can address me as she/he or however you are comfortable because that has to do with you not me. I know who I am and also know that I can not force my reality upon others.

Today I try to keep my light bright so as to be an example unto the world. today I am here to pump you full of sunshine and remind you that you are better than you think you are.

Keep Smiling
Marha