I'm in transgender with a beautiful husband we were best friends for 26 years been married for almost 6 years we've never had sex in all them years in now that I'm taking estrogen the woman in me is making thinking of what it is like to be with the man I want to know what it's like to have sex as a woman it's one of my fantasies but I'm very afraid to have sex plus I hate my bottom half I can't afford my bottom surgery that hurts so bad that it's giving me depression thoughts of suicide but I have taken care of it and I'm still fighting maybe one day I'll lose my virginity and I won't be so scared and I might even enjoy it this is one thing about me you want honesty this is the truth not a lie anymore I become a woman the more I won't be touched and it's getting harder to fight these feelings but before I have sex with anybody I want to get to know them so so I can be more comfortable with so if you wanted one night stand please don't talk to me

Last November I had an anxiety regression episode that set me back into being a LITTLE. My aunt is my caretaker and I live as a toddler. Growing up my mother would use being a LITTLE by making me wear diapers and LITTLE clothes. This was done from a early age. She would tell me you will always be a baby. Four years ago I had SRS.

Accepting and discovering my female self while coping with gender dysphoria.

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